Friday, March 23, 2007 @8:42 PM
Well exams are finally over. Really able breathe the air now, the stress was just so tighly choking me down. Finally there's time to do things that i want to do. Does the school have a little sympathy to at least have a short break for us. Is really draining after long nights of mugging and there's hardly anytime for any other things (rest). Well since is over might as well just have a break. Getting to hate school i think. Shooting seems rather hopless i guess. Sometimes i just try so hard to do something but i just don't seem to do it well anyway. It really makes me wonder if i'm doing the right thing. Everything just seems to hopeless to me now, i just can't get anything right. Something seems to be bordering me right now but i just can't figure what wrong (can't anyone just tell me please). Feeling rather moody today and lately i guess. Maybe i'm just thinking too much at times, making me so depressed. haha here i go again. But sometimes is just hard not to think, people wonder people think. i'm searching for answer to something that seems to unclear to me now. But i really wonder if i should look for it because i somehow just feel i already have the answer in me all along but i just don't want to face it or when i know the answer i just have doubts about it. haha this feeling just sucks! This moody feeling really makes me feel so down and i think that you would understand me but maybe this is not always the case.Sometimes or should i say most of the times things just don't work out the way you think it should. This feeling still lingers in me or is back i guess-feeling uncertain and unsure. The ironic thing is that i know what my heart wants but my mind just doesn't think the same way. Mind over heart, hear over mind. i really don't know. Yup should stop all these no use thinking and talk, shall just listen to music and let the mind rest! haha ya indeed without music, life is a mistake.....
⥠you and i both loved